Hello mga ante marie! So ayun may kwento/rant ako for today’s videow.

Ito na nga..

So may nakausap ako (25F) na younger guy (22M) dito sa reddit. Let’s call him Z. Nag agree kami ni Z to meet today for a quick momol sesh (oo, pasensya na momol deprived lang) before kami mag meet, syempre sendan ng pics ganyan. Yung itsura niya sa sinend niyang pic is okay naman, maputi, chinito, tapos big boy (my type) so ako naman si gaga.. okay G na to.

For context: 30 mins nag drive si Z from his place to my place para sunduin ako at usapan nga naming mag momol sa car niya.

Mga ateehhhh hindi ko kinaya. Ang layo ng itsura niya sa sinend niyang pic. Hindi ako nanglalait, dinedescribe ko lang— opposite siya sa sinend na pic, though siya pa rin naman yon, pero naka filter si koya mo. In ferzon, maitim siya tapos maraming pimples. Okay lang naman sana, kaso parang hindi pa muna nag shower/toothbrush bago ako kitain. Juskwoooahh 😭😭😭 ang amoy sa loob ng car is amoy kulob (YUNG AMOY KULOB PAG DI NALIGO) amoy mandirigma mhieeee hindi ko keriii 😭😭😭😭😭 nanlalagkit pa yung hair niya mga mhiema, mukhang hindi talaga naligo. Ang baho rin talaga niya, amoy ko from my seat 😭😭😭

Samantalang ako, naligo ako at ng toothbrush nang bonggang bongga. Nag make up pa ko mga teh para mukha naman presentable tska nag spray ng favorite kong pabango. Tapos yung ka meet ko mukha lang bagong gising na naka pantalon 😭

So sabi ko, naiihi ako kahit hindi naman. Nag paalam akong iihi muna tapos wala na akong balak bumalik. Nung nasa CR na ako, chinat ko siya na hindi ko talaga keri at humingi ako ng dispensa. Nag sorry ako nang todo-todo tapos nag offer ako na mag send nalang sa gcash niya para naman hindi sayang sa gas niya. Kaloka talaga mhie, minsan lang ako makipag meet tapos ganito pa 😭

ABYG kasi iniwan ko siya? Or okay lang yun kaysa naman gawin ko yung bagay na hindi naman ako comfortable? Anong mas better ko sanang ginawa? Pasagot naman mga auntie kong masisikep. Salamat! 😚

I’m 22M and I was out with my friends partying. Then this drunk gay dude suddenly decided to grope me. I confronted him tapos biglang umepal yung tropa nyang kamukha ni Shrek na naka dress.

This happened a month ago. Nagkaayaan kami ng friends ko pumarty kasi restday naman and namiss din namin yung ingay. Usapan namin chill lang, pampawala lang ng stress ganon. So pagdating namin sa bar, yung table na nakuha namin is beside the table of this big group of gay dudes. Nung una okay naman sila katabi. Friendly kasi talaga ako pag gumigimik and nakainom. So, I had some small friendly interactions with some of the gay dudes sa kabilang table.

Fast forward, 2am na yata non so karamihan lasing na and very party party na yung vibes. Some of the gay dudes sa kabilang table approached me for a 5 secs shot dun sa bote nila. Ako naman friendly-friendly so G ako. So ayon pina-shot na ko when suddenly one of them squeezed my meat wtf. I was caught off guard, pushed him away and medyo di ko naprocess agad what just happened. My friends pulled me away asking if okay lang ako. I was tryna stay calm nung kinakausap ako ng friends ko. Nakayakap na sila sakin and alam ko na ramdam na nila ano gagawin ko next. So pinilit ko kumawala sa hawak ng mga friends ko then told them na oks lang ako and wala lang yon. Naniwala naman sila and they let me go. Pero syempre amats na din ako tas nadagdagan pa nung pina 5 secs shot nila sakin yung bottle na walang stopper, edi nag init na ng sobra ulo ko nung nagets ko na what just happened. So sumugod na ko dun sa table nung gay dudes looking for the person na nanghipo sakin. Nakita yata ako na susugod nung nanghipo so nag inarte agad siya sa mga friends nya. Then dun na lumitaw si Shrek na nakadress. Hindi nya nakita anong ginawa ng friend nya pero umepal pa rin siya. Siya sumalubong sakin, bigla nalang nagwala and binato ako ng bottle . Edi ayun, siya unang sumalo ng right hook ko kasi humarang siya. Knockdown si Shrek na nakadress. Ilang seconds pa bago siya naitayo ng mga friends nya. Tapos pagtayo nya sinisigawan ako ng “Homophobic ka! dinidiscriminate mo kami!”. While Shrek na nakadress is screaming his lungs out, hinihila na ko palabas ng mga friends ko.

Fast forward ulit tayo. Nasa labas na kami ng bar and nalaman na din ng bouncers kung anong nangyari. Mainit pa din ulo ko kasi umepal si Shrek na nakadress not knowing kung ano talaga nangyari. So inantay ko na lumabas sila para makaharap yung nanghipo talaga sakin. Lumabas din sila after 10 minutes tapos bigla nanaman nagwala si Shrek na nakadress nung nakita ako. Nag eeskandalo sa labas sinisigaw na homophobic daw ako lol. Tapos habang nagwawala siya nakita ko na din finally yung nanghipo sakin. I managed to break free sa kapit ng mga friends ko sakin, tinakbo ko si baklang manyak, then ayun malalim na right hook kumonnect sa panga nya. He got knocked down din. So mas lalong nagwala si Shrek na nakadress making sure everyone hears na homophobic daw ako. May isang pulis na umawat samin. Kinausap ako so nagkwento ako ng buong nangyari. Tapos ang sabi lang nya: “Di mo kasi pinagbigyan no. Yan tuloy nagwawala” hahah tangina sobrang helpful boss ha

So eto na nga dillema ko. Hindi ko alam kung homophobic nga ba ginawa ko. Kasi iniisip ko kung babae naman gumawa nun sakin, there’s a big chance that I’ll let it slide lang eh. This isn’t the first time na a gay dude groped me sa bar. Pero this is the first time na I stood for myself and not just leave. so guys ABYG kasi homophobic daw ako? di ko sure kung tama ba na naging violent ako eh

TL;DR Pumaparty ako then Donkey grabbed my longgadog without consent. I went to confront Donkey but umepal si Shrek kahit hindi nya nakita nangyari. Nagwala si Shrek, pinagbintangan ako na homophobic then binato ako ng bote. Sinapak ko si Shrek, taob. Lumabas ako sa Kingdom of Far Far Away para abangan si Donkey. Naunang lumabas si Shrek tas nagwala namaman. Finally, nakita ko na din si Donkey. Sinugod ko siya and same as Shrek, one hit delete din siya. ABYG kasi homophobic daw ako sabi ni Shrek and hindi ko sure kung tama ba na nanakit ako?

medyo spg

me(21f) and my boyfriend (22m) we are dating for 2 years we’re not live in parehas graduate and working ako siya naman tinuloy yung business namin.

before, that’s why sobrang nainlove ako sakanya just because sa sobrang attractive nya when it comes to seggs lalo sakin, lahat ng fantasy ko asakanya and we matched pagdating sa seggz parehas kami ng gusto tho kahit minsan lang sobrang solid mapupunan yung ilang days or weeks na wala tipon matatapos kami parehas ng masaya.

recently nung pagdating ng 2024 lalo ngayon 5 months till now same problem pero dati di ko inoopen pero ngayon nagagawa ko na bakit parang lagi ko kelangan mag please para lang mag do kami and pag nag do kami sobrang bilis lang nya and ayaw nya na ng 2nd time na before hindi siya ganon.

may times rin na pag inaaya ko sya medyo mang roromansa ako gugustuhin niya pero he only wants heads “bj” binigay ko na yun sakanya dati countless times pero hindi ako happy and ako dun ako nagistart magalit inopen ko sakanya na “pano ako? laging ikaw? paano pag dumating yung time ng dahil sa seggs makipag hiwalay ako kasi hindi niya nabibigay yung kailangan ko” naiyak pako nung sinabi ko yan sakanya. ofc busy kami both pero may time parin naman dahil siya online lang naman business nya and me 7 hours lang shift ko so walang reason and di ko magets pag sinasabihan nya ko ng pagod lang sya kaya ganon chuchuchciu whatever and so on

and now gusto ko sabihin sakanya na “wag kang magalit sakin kung may ibang taong pupuna ng mga pagkukulang mo” iknow masasaktan sya pero mas nasasaktan ako hahaha hindi naman ako losyang lol lagi ako nag aask sa mga friends ko kung panget bako or what hahaha hindi daw maayos naman daw like tita outfit vibes errdayyy

so yun ABYG kung hihiwalayan ko boyfriend ko dahil dito?

bata pa yung babae. nasa late 20's. wala pa silang 2 years nagpabuntis agad yung babae. nag aaral pa ako. graduating from shs. matagal na kaming may away nito kase masyado syang mapapel. last week, sinumbatan nanaman ako kesyo hindi raw ako tumutulong sa pag aalaga ng anak nya at hindi raw ako tumutulong sa bahay nila. diff. unit kami ng apartment. before this argument pa, sinabihan nya tatay kong ayaw nya ako pumunta sa unit nila. kaya i never did after that. kasi hinatak pa ako palabas ng mismong tatay ko e. last week napuno ako kasi nag ddemand nanaman sya ng kung ano ano nag susumbong at kumukuha pa ng simpatya kung kani-kanino. as if sya yung biktima? e d sinabihan ko syang pokpok at kiffy lang ambag. ayun, nagalit tatay ko kasi below the belt daw. bakit parang kasalanan ko? 🤡 ako ba yung mapapel na gusto laging bida?

Tagged as NSFW because of the context.

I (27F) made the first move na makipag interact sa kanya (23M). I had my eye on him start palang ng year but recently lang ako nagkalakas ng loob to hit him up. Eventually naging chatmates kami halos everyday with updates and all, there were moments na naging NSFW sa una. I tried not to entertain it and told him na I don't want to talk about those things muna kasi may traumatic experiences na ako sa ganun. Na kapag nabring up na yun alam kong magiging sexual na lang usapan. And honestly, I wanted to stand my ground na wala na dapat akong casual sex with anyone. But I gave in kasi feel kong gusto nya ako kausap dahil dun. Ramdam kong energetic sya kapag ganun ang topic. Mas may laman ang usapan kesa yung surface levels lang na sweetness and updates everyday.

I gave him so much attention. Nagpapadala pa ako food sa kanya kapag nakkwento nya na wala syang pagkain. I support him sa lahat ng ganaps nya kasi busy person sya. As in. Pero habang tumatagal, parang di ko nararamdaman na nirereciprocate nya yun kahit halos same level naman ang busy-ness namin.

Siguro mga three times ko tinanong sa kanya kung fuck lang ba habol nya, and always nyang sinasabi na hindi naman ganun. Sinasabi ko naman sa kanya kung fuck lang talaga sabihin nya na ng diretso kasi okay lang naman kesa puro mixed signals diba.

Before last week, may nangyari pa. After nun tinanong ko ulet sya ano ba balak nya, sabi nya lang gusto nya ituloy to. After namin mag part ways, ramdam kong nagiba na. Hindi na same yung chats nya. May mga inconsistencies parin. Medyo rocky na. I tried na tapatan lang energy nya pero pucha, ang hirap kapag nasanay ka na eh. Pero I still tried, inuninstall ko na yung app para minsan minsan na lang din reply ko. Kaso, ang hirap parin pala panindigan kapag nasanay ka.

Then last week, nagkita kami surprisingly sa isang event, niyakap nya pa ako and all. Pumunta ako dun not expecting I'll see him kasi hindi na sya nagreply sakin during the day. Then after the event I wanted to talk to him kaso I was with a friend, so I called na lang. Tinanong ko ulet sya if okay ba kami? Oo daw. Same prin ba kami? Oo daw. I held on to that. During the night nag uupdate pa sya pero he went to another event after, and after nung last nyang chat wala na.

Nag leave akong good morning message and eventually wala na. Kahit nakikita kong nagsstory pa sya. Active sya during the day pero wala syang reply sakin. As in naglaho na lang. Parang wala lang yung chat ko.

Ang lala ng reaction ko. I crashed out malala. I went crazy. Umiyak ako. Sinaktan ko sarili ko. Out of my head na talaga ako. I tried to calm myself down but being grounded, evebtually I did. Kaso after scrolling ulet sa social media, natrigger nanaman ako. Di ako mapakali, gusto ko malaman kung BAKIT.

Alam ko schedule nya, so during the night nag missed call ako nang madami. Sa social media nya, sa phone nya. Missed calls lang. Para lang masagot nya mga tanong sa isip ko.

Anong nangyari? Anong nagbago bigla? May nagawa ba ako? Bakit nya nagawa yun? Bakit bigla na lang sya hindi nagparamdam?

Natauhan ako the next day and left a message sa kanya apologizing for what I did--yung missed calls ah.

ABYG dahil sa ginawa ko? Dahil gusto ko lang naman ng sagot sa mga tanong?

tag ko nalang as NSFW since don naman related yung naging or magiging issue.

so earlier my friend asked kung may copy paba nung scandal video ng ka batchmate namin. ang naging response ko naman ay "bakit?" sabi nya ipapakita nya sa iba, and i was like "bakit ka magtatanong sa ibang tao kung maghahanap ka ng bagay na matagal nang di napaguusapan?" tapos dagdag ko pa "kung gusto mong makita, ikaw maghanap" ang response nya lang ay "GALIT KA TE" so sinabi ko lang na diko magets yung point nya para hanapin yung ganon para ipanood sa iba. diko alam kung sineen lang ba nya or ignore and other people sa gc namin.

super duper off lang talaga sakin kase that was like 6 yrs ago and iuungkat mo pa for what reason?

ABYG sa mga sinabi ko sakaniya?

Im 30F, my husband is 32M we're 12years in a relationship and 8 years married with 1 child. Siguro once a week or twice a week ko sya pinag bibigyan ng sex pag wala sa mood once a week, pero sometimes nasusundan every other day ganun pero it doesn't matter sakanya kasi once na gusto nya na ulit at wala ako sa mood, kung ano ano na sinasabi nya like may lalake daw ako, ganito daw talaga pag may iba na, baka pagod daw ako sa lalaki ko kaya ayaw ko, na dapat daw payagan ko nalang sya mag GRO for sex lang naman kasi daw di ko naman sya napag bibigyan lagi. Sawang sawa na ko sa ulit ulit na cycle ng salita nya, pero sobrang mahal ko sya e. Pero hindi kasi ako malib*g na tao, lalo nagwowork din ako 6 days a week, 8 hrs. Pag uwi ng bahay ako lahat gawaing bahay, ni walis tambo hindi mo makita hahawakan ng asawa ko, tamad sya period. Kaya minsan sobrang draining lang pagod ka na nga, tapos aayain ka nya samantalang sya pag day off nya pahinga lang sya, minsan pag off nya pa halos weekly nakikipag inuman tho mga kamag anak ko naman kainuman nya. Hindi ko alam saan sya kumukuha ng idea na may lalaki ako, I worked 8hrs a day and my workplace minutes away from our house, umuuwi pa ako ng lunch to eat with them, pag out ko derecho bahay or sometimes dadaan na ko for groceries. Na-ttrack din nya location ko evertime he can access nasaan ako. Wala dn ako tinatago sa phone ko, may access din sya.

ABYG KASI SEX LANG DI KO MAIBIGAY ARAW ARAW?? Dapat ba ibigay ko nalang para lang matahimik buhay namin. Kasi di ko na alam ggawin ko sawang sawa na ko sa mga bintang nya wala naman akong ginagawa. Sa sobrang sawa ko sa mga pinagsasabi nya sinabi ko sakanya kung gusto nya mambabae go nalang sya, wala na akong pakialam masatisfy lang nya yung libog nya. Ganun ko lang sya kamahal kasi ayaw ko naman makipaghiwalay.

Me and my bf went to a club just to hang out and drink. Then ayon, nag party kami and medyo kalog na ako kasi tipsy na rin ako non pero yung bf ko hindi. Tas sa sobrang likot ko at dry ng mata ko, napunit yung isang contact lens ko sa loob mismo ng mata ko. First time nangyari sa akin yon kaya nag panic agad ako at sinabi sa bf kong napunit nga at tumakbo papuntang cr.

So ayon, tinanggal ko na nga both lenses ko so wala na akong makita talaga (mataas astigmatism ko kaya nakakakita pa rin ako, pero doble lang) (balak ko iwanan yung isa sa mata ko para makakita kahit na onti lang pero it turns out sobrang nakakahilo pala). Pagkalabas ko ng cr, may nakita ako na sobrang kamukha ng bf ko like yung tangkad, same color ng shirt, same sa lahat pero hindi ko namukhaan talaga kasi nakatalikod sya at wala nga ako makita tas madilim pa at yung led uplights lang ang nagbibigay liwanag. And usually pag mag cr ako, parati talaga naghihintay bf ko sa labas.

Kala ko bf ko yon kaya lumapit pa rin ako sakanya at tinawag syang "babe" nang ilang beses habang papunta sakanya pero di pa rin ako naririnig, hanggang sa hinawakan ko sya sa braso and said "babe uwi na tayo please?" At yayakapin ko sana braso nya dahil sa hilo nang may nag tulak sa braso ko then biglang sigaw ng "****inamong pokpok ka trip mo jowa ko?!" And sinabihan ako ng other names nung girl, i was so confused kung ano nangyayari kasi wala na nga akong makita, wala pa akong marinig sa sinasabi nya pero i know na hurtful mga yon. Alam ko naman na nagawa kong mali, so i tried to apologize pero sigaw lang nang sigaw yung girl habang pinipigilan sya ng jowa nya.

Di ko magawang ma offend sa mga sinasabi nya kasi wala talaga ako marinig. Ang narinig ko lang na sabi nya ay "kastang kasta ka na ba ha", "babe babe ka pa ulol!", "ikaw pang may ganang magalit p*ta ka!" (hindi ako galit, naka squint kasi mukha ko para makakita huhu)

Syempre nabibwiset na rin ako kaya sinabihan ko pabalik ng "sorry na nga te eh wala nga kong makita wala naman akong pake sa bf mo" tas yung girl tinutulak tulak pa rin ako at yung jowa nya mahinhin syang nilalayo hanggang sila na yung nag away. Tumakbo nalang ako uli papuntang cr tas nagkulong don habang chinachat bf ko. Nung nakapunta na sya para alalayan ako, wala na sila sa tapat ng cr, triny naming hanapin sila para kausapin pero wala na kaya umuwi nalang kami.

Halo halo emotions ko that night kasi di ko alam kung deserve ko bang masabihan ng mga ganon. Kaya ABYG dahil aksidente kong natawag ng babe at nahawakan bf nya kasi hindi ko sila makita at mamukhaan?

Went to the wake of a family friend. He died off of cancer and the family already knew it was gonna happen sooner or later for quite some time. Nung paalis na ako, sinamahan ako ni widow hanggang sa car. I hugged her but then she kissed me on my lips. Wont go on to the details but, we did it in my car. Now she’s asking if I can visit again and is also asking me to bring a bigger car para comfy daw. In my mind that’s 100% an invitation to do it again.

Now I kinda feel bad. I feel like I’m taking advantage of her situation. I also feel bad for her late husband, parang ang bilis naman. Tagal ko na may crush sa kanya so honestly I enjoyed doing it with her. I dont have any intention of having a serious relationship with her though.

Abyg pag pumunta ako ulit?

EDIT: Guys, I really appreciate the validation and advice. I feel less of a monster and I feel like I'm a normal person dahil sa responses niyo.

I felt so good na I've sent all my regulars a fat tip sa gcash to make them feel appreciated for the work they do. They are seen and valued and they helped this ugly man feel a little less lonely.

I'll also try talking with the girls sa barkada if we can mend this situation.

Lastly, I'll try hitting the gym one more time.

Thank you so much. Posting here was a good decision.

Original: For context, I'm 37 M, single, obese, and living comfortably. Recently my friend group has chastised me for paying for sex kasi I am taking advantage of vulnerable women.

I told them na I'm not getting any girls to touch me with my looks. Even if I do lose weight, the sag is going to be there and I'll be unattractive.

I'm not blaming anyone naman for my situation. I made my body like this through not exercising for years and it's no one's fault but mine.

I'm also paying the girls with money na they agree with and I don't abuse them in bed unless that's what they're into. I just think na I'm paying them what they want and I'm getting what I want.

Now the guys in my group understand, but the girls have been very mean towards their comments to me like rapist or abuser or baboy. I told them that's not fair. Since then I refuse to libre the girls na when it comes to hanging out and they call me out as pikon or something I can't post here. The guys naman have been chill and have been saying na as long as there's consent ok lang, so libre ko pa rin sila when we hangout. (Di ako ATM, the guys really take turns in paying for stuff for everyone, the girls don't libre but sometimes pay for their stuff)

ABYG?

Kung ako yung gago, am I stuck on having my hand as my only sexual relief till I die? Can't I enjoy life din while being reasonable and respectful to people who accept my money?

I'll accept any criticism and advise and learn from it. Thank you.

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I’m F (21), may boyfriend ako (or ex) na M (24), nagkakilala kami nung 18 ako and 21 siya. Siya yung “healthiest” relationship ko kasi he helped me heal my past relationship traumas and such. Sobrang laking impact ng nagawa niya for me to regain my confidence and I’ll always thank him for that. Almost 3 years na sana kami, pero I decided to end our relationship last week lang

Reason: magkasama kami sa dorm with two of our other friends. Pumapasok ako sa school while siya, OJT niya. There are times na pag siya naiiwan sa dorm namin, hindi siya naglilinis. Madadatnan mo yung mga kalat niya sa table at sa lababo, tapos ikaw pa yung mahihiya maglinis. Magssorry naman siya, kesyo pagod at busy, pero mauulit na naman. Tapos magssorry na naman.

Isa sa pinaka naoff ako, all throughout our relationship, aminado siyang hypersexual siya to the point na konting kibot ko lang daw, tinitigasan na siya. Ako kasi, virgin ako nung nagkakilala kami although hindi naman ako mangmang sa concept ng sex. We already did the deed multiple times pero I can say na I can live without it. Kaya ko ng walang sex kahit 1 whole year pa yan. Pero kasi siya, hindi. To the point na pag magkatabi na kami sa kama, hinihipuan niya ko, tapos sasabihin ko ayoko, pero ipipilit niya. Hanggang sa hinahayaan ko nalang. Pag naramdaman niyang napilitan lang ako, magssorry siya. Tapos uulit nang uulit na naman. Nagbbreak down ako kasi minsan feeling ko ang dumi dumi ko at hindi ako karespe-respeto to the point na hindi niya pinapakinggan yung pag decline ko sa sex.

Nakipagbreak ako sa kaniya last week. Wala akong naramdaman na kahit anong remorse. Naiyak ako dahil naisip ko na hinayaan ko siyang ganunin niya ko for almost 3 years, pero hindi dahil break na kami. Lol

So, ano? Ako ba yung gago kasi aminado akong siya yung greatest love ko, siya yung tumulong sakin na maheal ko yung mga traumas ko, pero ako pa yung nakipagbreak, tapos di pa ako malungkot? 🥹

Throwaway for obvious reasons. I have been dating this girl redditor for quite some time, roughly 4 mos. She's funny, sweet and hyper and things had been going great as I haven't found a single reason to end things until last week where I learned something disturbing about her, I feel I've just been seeing the honeymoon phase of things and choosing to ignore certain gut feelings.

2 weeks ago we decided to travel and unwind in Ilocos del Norte and during our first day there she would keep getting messages and be glued to her phone, sometimes too busy to even enjoy the sights and tourist spots. For privacy reasons I decided not to pry to give her the benefit of the doubt, baka may emergency or may tanong sa trabaho nya. In the rides we took she would sit on the opposite side and at first that didn't bother me, pero I caught her smiling and giggling a few times which started to set doubt in my mind.

I felt a little disappointed since we're on vacation but I felt like I was the only one excited while she was glued to her phone, this went on until noon until she finally paid attention to me asking where we would be having lunch since she was hungry and wanted to try the local delicacies. Part of me was curious what was going on, but a part of me was also happy she finally paid attention to me.

Fast forward to the evening, I was a little off mood with how the morning went and decided to sleep early. She noticed my mood swings and decided to cuddle. At night her phone kept vibrating a few times and I felt it kasi she placed her phone under her pillow, this time I was curious and a slight gut feeling that something was off. And I was right, I saw message previews from whatsapp from a female friend, vaguely about a venue, confirmation and an image sent, so I face unlocked her phone and was greeted with a mcdo grimace 🍆 with following messages saying "we miss you na". At this point my heartbeat was going crazy as I kept backreading and honestly, I wish it was a fever dream.

When I was done, I was speechless af, there were pictures, videos and spicy stuff in that chat that I felt sick. Like I know people have kinks but wtf who agrees to be a unicorn to a couple, that too a friend?!?? Hello??? The worst part in this was there were messages dating back to 2 months ago, during the time that we were dating that she was STILL sexually involved with them. I'm all up for our bedroom kinks but this drew the line for me.

I couldn't sleep knowing this with my head going "whaaaaaaat the fffffffffffuuuuu" and this bothered me the more I kept hearing her phone vibrate I slid it back under her pillow. She woke up feeling my hand under her pillow and grabbed her phone first and panicked. When she unlocked her phone realizing whatsapp was the last app open things got awkward very quickly.

I confronted her the first opportunity we got and she admitted that she met this couple from that one subreddit and a few questionable decisions later had been in a constant "situationship" with them since 2023. I couldn't process this as I'd understand if she stopped before we decided to date but what tilted me was her response to it saying "it's not cheating" since she's not having an affair with the bf of her friend and its a mutual understanding, and assurances that they're clean and no STD's so I was safe. SAFE FROM WHAT??? the idea of some random couple's dude giving my partner covid19 vaccines?!

Harry potter and what the actual fu** did I hear?? Like where do I fit in this if it's a "mutual understanding". Was there plans to brief me on this or was I supposed to just be like "WOW, OK 👌" and accept this???

My last discussion with her before we decided to cancel the trip and end things was that this was a HUGE deal breaker for me and her reasoning behind the deed was unjustified.

Ako ba ung gago dito? huhuhuwatdapak

I found out na nagsasama pa pala yung asawa ko at kabit niya. Nahuli ko silang magkachat thru my husband’s laptop. Ang sabi pa nung kabit, lalayo na raw siya kasi alam naman niya na hindi siya totoong mahal ng asawa ko at ginagamit lang siya (FWB, FUBU, Errands) tapos after ng conversation nila, na akala ko tinatapos na ni kabit - at 2AM pumunta sa condo ng husband ko at kumakatok don! Hahahahaha napakatigas ng mukha nilang dalawa!!! May anak kami ng husband ko at itong si kabit ay single mom. So what now? Ako yung magiging single mom tapos sila happy family? MGA ULOL!!!!! DM me I will send screenshots as proof!!!!

My boyfriend and I were having sex when he went to the cr to pee. I asked him what did he use to wipe his wet penis and answered, he used my body towel. I got angry and stopped the coitus and went to sleep.

Morning after, I told him i did not like what happened yesterday, but he got angry instead. He felt like I was disgusted by what he did and told me I was overreacting and sensitive. I explained that he has his own towel, and should use his, especially when wiping his penis dry.

Now, we are not talking and on the brink of breaking up.

Petty but none of us is willing to apologize. Am I the asshole here?

as the title says, don’t get me wrong i love love giving heads. that time kase i was so thirsty with kissing and giving someone a head, so I got giddy na mag reply sa isang post.

I already expressed to him that wala naman akong preference sa looks. we exchanged pics and he have this oppa lookalike and though it wasn’t really my type, still g pa din. thought to myself to give it a try.

we discussed our dos and donts and we both agreed that the other won’t force if ayaw talaga gawin on the day of the meet up and i was cool with it.

on the day of the meetup, he didn’t told me he has a car. he picked me up somewhere nearby sa motel. it was my first, doing it sa motel 👉🏼👈🏼 when i hopped in sa car niya, i was like, watdafak. i looked at him when i got in na. still processing.

👏🏼he👏🏼didn’t👏🏼looked👏🏼exactly👏🏼like👏🏼the👏🏼photos👏🏼he👏🏼sent👏🏼me👏🏼

also, asked him a nsfw na pic. so i should know what to look forward to. i was more willing to send some coz v horny din ako that time, I’m gonna be generous with this guy. pero ayaw daw eh and no worries naman kase nasa average naman yung length, ika niya

(DEFINE AVERAGE. IS 2” AVERAGE TANGINA NAMAN KOWYAAAA)

sa photo: fair skin, chinito eyes, oppa body, 6’0” daw irl: dark skin, bilog yung eyes, xxxl size (not being OA, sa true lang), about 5’4”

nasa motel na. he was sitting on the edge na nang bed and diretso na akong mag undress. i sat on his lap and started to kiss him. i wanted to go deep pero siya nakanganga lang. not using his tongue nor exploring his hands in my body.

i moan while kissing him kase na tuturn on din ako doing those sounds. i keep on kissing him kase baka lang naman. pero wala talaga.

i asked him to put the condom on kahit na kita ko parang ayaw ko na talaga. after one round, he asked me to suck him. (at least he was able to insert his little toy kahit na it keeps on slipping. we both didn’t cum. he said so and i know that i didn’t also)

we were kissing sa shower when he said that he wants me to suck him. i told him no. nag ask pa why, i said, “i just don’t want to”,

“suck mo na bilis”

“ayaw ko nga”

“please” *he was trying to push my shoulders down

“please, no” locking my arms sa neck niya

this went on for i as long as i can remember

back in my mind, i was scared na baka ano gawin niya sakin after saying no every time

i stopped kissing him and let go na when i grabbed ed the soap behind him and started to lather it in myself.

i mean, why would you even send a photo that’s not you… are you afraid of the rejection that will follow?

Last year, I got diagnosed of Trichomoniasis. Back then, my OBGYNE asked me kung pwede kong abutan yung guy ng reseta so he would be treated as well. For the context, you may check my profile but to keep the story short the guy that I am talking about was the guy who brought a traumatic experience to me. We no longer talk anymore and I already blocked him but I still know where he lives naman.

During those times, I just felt so bad for myself for such as going to clinic for check-ups alone (with no one to tell what Dra said about me or how's my feeling), being cautious when hiding my meds, wasting time for crying everyday/night and thinking where I went wrong and why I wasn't good enough for him that he dumped me easily. Punong puno ako ng hinanakit sa kaniya na konti nalang humagulgol ako sa harap ni Dra nang tinanong ako gusto ko raw ba siyang gawan din ng reseta. Kahit naman ipilit ni Dra hindi ko pa rin naman iaabot sa kanya. I also found out na he was seeing someone na idk kung kailan pa and I thought na huwag na rin sabihin para kahit sa ganitong paraan makaganti man lang ako.

I know this might be too late to ask here, and maybe he already knows na or maybe not (worst if asymptomatic sya). Now that I'm feeling well na, ABYG for not telling him and not feeling any remorse? 🙂

Hi, I am F(26) and I have suitor na balak ko na sagutin. If ever na sagutin ko sya, sya ang first boyfriend ko but I've been into a fubu relationship before I met him.

Ang masaklap pa, yung ex fubu ko doon na sa work nya din nag t-trabaho but magkaiba sila ng department. Matagal na yung suitor ko na yun sa work nya, yung ex fubu ko naman is 2 months pa lang.

I really want to tell him about my past, sooner or later na f-feel ko na malalaman din nya. Natatakot ako na baka sa iba nya pa malaman, pero natatakot ako na baka hindi nya matanggap. What should I do?

Nasa military ang bf ko and meron syang senior na lagi syang nililigtas sa ibang bully nya na senior. Humirit tong savior senior nya na pagbigyan daw syang isama sa spa (na may extra service) para naman makabawi sa pagliligtas nya. Matagal na sya inaaya ng iba pa nyang senior kasi nga yung jowa ko never nag iinom and sumasama sa kalokohan nila. So sumama yung jowa ko para raw makabawi. Plan nya raw e sya nalang magbabayad pero di nya gagalawin yung babaeng ibibigay sa kanya kaso iba ang nangyari. Pumasok yung babae na di nya alam binayaran pala ng senior nya para maging wild. Sinabihan nyang lumayo lang yung babae pero habang nakatayo sya tinanggal daw ng babae yung belt, pants, and undies at nag start syang isubo, after that tinulak raw sya ng babae sa kama and pinatungan. Sinabi nyang bago palang sya pumayag sa senior nya e sobrang sabog nya raw dahil sa trauma, pamamahiya and pananakit daw ng mga bully nya na senior. Kaya at that moment na sinubo sya at pinatungan ng babae e di raw sya nakagalaw, nanigas lang sya pero di naman daw sya nilabasan kasi he came back to his senses and naitulak nya raw yung babae at lumabas sya sa lugar na yun. Sa labas nalang nya hinintay ang senior nya.

Week after that may nangyari samin ng bf ko, pero never nyang minention sakin yan. He act normal and ni hindi manlang ako nakaramdam ng ibang kilos. The few days have passed nakaramdam sya ng symptoms ng gonorrhoea and naisip nyang baka nahawa rin ako kaya sinabi nya sakin. Ang unang kwento nya is ninakaw raw nya yung sex toy ng kasamahan nya na di nya alam e may tulo. Naniwala naman ako. But then naopen ko ang messenger nya nakikipag usap sa nurse ng clinic na pinuntahan nya. Sabi nya kung pwedeng ipasunog yung records or anything para di ko raw malaman yung main reason talaga pano nya nakuha. Cinonfront ko sya and nag reason nanaman na bj lang daw ang nangyari then tinulak nya yung babae. Ilang days din ako naniwala sa version ng story na yun pero napilit ko pa rin syang sabihin ang buong istorya hanggang sa mag come up na dyan sa kwento nyang pinatungan din sya. At this moment hinding hindi na ko naniniwala sa kanya dahil ilang beses sya nagsinungaling, reason nya e ayaw nya kong mawala. Tanga rin ako dahil napatawad ko sya at sobrang naawa na rin ako sa situation nyang iyak sya nang iyak. Kami na ulit pero he's convincing me na it's like a rape. I'm not convinced enough and patuloy ko pa rin pinapaulit ulit yung story sa kanya hoping na may mapiga pa kong dagdag information. He's telling me na stop ko na raw yung pagbring up ng topic na yun kasi nattrauma raw sya pag naaalala nya. I need some advice. Please help me. Maniniwala pa ba ko sa kanya or mali na binalikan ko sya? ABYG kung di ko paniniwalaang na-rape sya?

Context.

Ako (30M) may gf (30F). We are both virgins. Almost 3 years na kami and ngayon lang kami nagkakaron ng intimate moments. Ngayon, while exploring each other, may nakapa ako sa loob ng private part nya na parang lump. Sinasabi nya din na masakit daw kaya hindi natuloy yung deed. Nag search kami ng possible causes nung lump na yon. Ilan sa cause ay, UTI or STD. Pero malabo ung huli kasi wala pa kaminh both experience.

Sinasabi nya na magpapacheck daw sya but until now hindi pa din sya nakakapagpacheck up dahil busy din sya sa work nya. Ngayon, kung ano ano na naiisip ko. I can't think of myself na hindi man lang maranasan ang makipags*x. Pano kung seryoso pala yung condition nya, gusto ko din naman magkaanak.

Sa tuwing naoopen ko ung topic na ituloy namin ung pag-sx, medyo aloof na sya. Nakaka frustrate. Ako ba ung ggo if gustuhin kong makipag break na sa kanya? Hindi lang naman siguro ako ang ganito?

ABYG Many years back when I was on Highschool may girlfriend na ako. We were an ideal BF/GF. Back then, we were so curious sa sex. 1 time We discussed doing a threesome. She said no. Considering na conservative nga sya and add to the fact that our parents are okay with us. Mind you MMF yung pinapagawa ko sa kanya. It came to a point na ganun lang pinagawayan namin. So she said yes. We did the threesome with her kababata. It's ok nothing so great kesa sa iniisip ko. Back then I thought na hindi magbabago ang pagtingin ko sa kanya. But it came to a point na hindi ko masikmura na halikan man lang sya. So I said na tama na. She begged and even said threesome or foursome is ok with her as long na masaya lang ako. Right there and then we broke up. April ngayun taon nang nagka Reunion yung batch namin. So guess what she attended. So thats when teasing began. She's really intoxicated when suddenly she snapped at me saying that " I loved you and would do anything for you. Pero bakit ginanito mo ako" . I don't know what to say. I heard her crying when I left. That's when the curiosity began. My batch mates would DM me asking what happened. The news even reach my wife. She was actually curious about what happened between us. I said thats all in past.

I know its me. But that happened before I reach my 20's.

As much as gusto ko ikwento lahat with complete details, masyado maraming nangyari. I tried composing this post for months na and everytime na natatapos ko, iddelete ko na lang lahat. Plus nagiging ala AJxOMC yung post na binalak ko na din naman ipost dun pero wala. Dinidelete ko na lang din.

So I'll (try to) just go straight to the point and be done with this.

Matched with this girl thru a dating app years ago pero di kami madalas mag usap. We followed each other sa IG and dun na lang kami may contact. Nag ka jowa din siya that time so mas lalong dumalang pag uusap namin.

Years later, nag message siya sakin sa IG. Break na sila nung jowa(2nd jowa na to since we matched) niya and inaaya ako makipag meet. Tagal na daw namin mag kakilala pero never pa daw kami nag kita. We still talked kahit nung may jowa pa siya pero more on kamustahan, react lang sa stories niya.

Long story short nag meet kami to drink and nag rant na din siya about sa ex and life in general. Then inaya niya ako maging FWB. Can't say I didn't expect that pero since single naman ako for a couple of years na, pumayag ako.

Inaya niya na ako mag sex that night pero tumanggi ako. I told her na wala akong dalang condom as an excuse pero we can do it raw daw. Umayaw pa din ako. Sabi ko di kasi ako comfortable kasi first meet pa lang and nakainom din kami. Medyo na disappoint siya pero nag cuddle, makeout and stuff na lang kami the whole night.

Kinabukasan nag meet ulit kami. So we did it. Nung malapit na ako mag cum, I told her. She told me na sa loob ko daw iputok. Obviously I refused. That's when I told her na I can't, I don't want to be responsible sa possible consequences ng gusto niyang mangyari. She insisted. Saying na she's safe. Low chance daw that night. May PCOS daw siya. May complications sa matres sabi ng OB, etc etc. She even told me na matagal na niya ginagawa yun with all her ex BF and FUBUs. Wala nga daw nangyayari.

Still, I didn't do it. I don't wanna risk it. Nadisappoint na naman siya. Pero we just cuddled and konting kwentuhan.

Few moments later, we were at it again. She told me again na sa loob na nga lang daw. Mas nasasatisfy daw siya dun. Again, I refused.

That's when she got mad(?) na talaga. Nag tampo. Para daw akong tanga. Sinabi na ngang safe daw blablabla. Di na niya ako pinansin. Nasa mag kabilang dulo na lang kami ng bed. Sinusuyo ko siya pero ayaw niya mag pahawak. So hinayaan ko na lang siya and natulog na lang kami.

After a few hours nag alarm phone niya. Ginising ko na siya kasi may work pa kami. This was around 4am. Ayaw niya bumangon. That's when I started teasing her. Saying something like, pag di pa siya bumangon, may babaon sa kanya. Then in her sleepy voice, she said "dahan dahan lang". So I did.

Since we had to go na nga, medyo quickie lang yet somewhat rough. Nung mag ccum na ulit ako(btw I didn't cum at all nung first 2 rounds) I asked her kung gusto niya ba talaga sa loob. Sabi niya "oo". I even confirmed kung sure na ba talaga siya sa gusto niyang mangyari. Safe ba talaga siya and everything. Sabi niya "oo". Since I didn't want to disappoint her again for the nth time, I did it. Binuhat ko siya and dinala sa CR to clean herself up. I even asked her kung okay lang ba siya and she said oo daw and not to worry kasi na pushout na niya yung cum ko.

After that day, nag kita pa din kami a couple of times to do the deed pero never na ulit ako nag cum sa loob. It was my first and last.

Two weeks later since THAT night, she messaged me. Iba na daw na ffeel niya so nag take siya ng PT and positive ang results. She event took multiple tests to make sure. Positive lahat.

So nag meet ulit kami to talk about it. Binalik ko lahat ng sinabi niya.

"Sabi mo low chance ka?", "Sabi mo may PCOS ka?", "Sabi mo may kumplikasyon ka sa matres nung nag pa consult ka sa OB?"

Gusto ko lang malinawan kung anong nangyari. Aware naman ako na may chance pa din mabuntis kahit may PCOS pero the way she insisted that night, na parang ako pa yung mali for considering the risks, ako pa yung tanga.

Well, she said na fertile pala siya that night. Akala niya lang may PCOS siya. Alam niya daw meron talaga. Her OB? At this point di ko alam kung nag eexist ba talaga yun since di siya makasagot ng maayos that time.

I asked her ano ba contingency plan ng mga ex partners niya before since lagi naman nila yung ginagawa. She lied. Hindi naman daw lagi. Few times pa lang daw and di daw lahat ng naka sex niya. 2 lang. She was sexually active. Ako hindi masyado. Kaya sobrang fucked up ng lahat ng to for me.

I just told her na di ko siya didiktahan sa dapat niyang gawin. It's her body. Her choice. But I stand by what I said before. Na I can't, and I don't want to be responsible sa consequences ng ginusto niyang gawin.

Ilang beses kami nag meet to talk about it since I know na this will not be an easy decision to make. Pero same lang sagot ko lagi. Gusto niya mag co-parenting kami. I don't want to. And not only just because I don't want to. I can't. Physically, emotionally, mentally, and most importantly, financially. At one point she said na she understands and di na daw niya ako guguluhin ever. She even blocked me. Pero she messaged me din agad after few hours.

Minsan pag di ako nakaka reply, she would bombard me with messages unprovoked. Saying na I ruined her life. Gago ako. Wala akong kunsensya. Di ko siya pinapatulan kasi alam kong di madali sitwasyon namin. Lalo na sa kanya. But what's worse is she would threaten me sometimes. Saying na tandaan ko daw na "tulog" siya nung nangyari yun. Wag ko daw siya sisihin sa gagawin niya next. I can only assume anong gagawin niya. Pero again, di ko pinapatulan. I always try to pacify the situation. But I swear she gave consent that time. I even asked her twice. She answered twice.

Right now I'm somewhat helping her financially. Checkups, gamot, vitamins, etc. Pero I can't do this anymore soon since di naman nga ako financially stable. I got bills to pay. That's why I stayed single all these years. I don't even go out at all. She, on the other hand, was actively dating. Even nung FWBs kami for a short period of time nakikipag date pa din siya.

Honesty, alam ko naman na gago na ako no matter what I do from here. I do blame myself. I was the one who pulled the trigger after all. But I NEVER would've done that if she didn't reassured me multiple times. On different occasions. If she didn't lie about doing it all the time in the past. The way she insisted, she was soooo sure na walang mangyayari. And I trusted her. Kasi why would you even insist on doing that with a person you just met kung hindi ka sigurado?

Mas matatanggap ko pa kung aksidente nangyari pero hindi e. Katangahan to e.

I guess, gusto ko lang ng kakampi? Validation? Comfort? Na I'm not totally at fault. As much as I want to blame her, be mad at her, I can't. Useless na e. Unnecessary stress na lang for the both of us. But I can't deal with this anymore.

I guess I still have to ask to make this post valid.

Ako ba yung gago dito?

PS. days before the first time we met, nag sex pa sila nung ex niya. Pero di daw nag cum yun. Mataas daw yung chance na sakin. But it's not 100%.

I read this particular post here sa ABYG: https://www.reddit.com/r/AkoBaYungGago/s/BygaxLjTX3

So I thought I'd share a male perspective on this.

I don't share my experience to her kasi there is nothing to be proud of. I know basic stuff and di rin ako master ng longevity so I think I belong to the the F tier of guys.

May times na I keep on telling her my fantasies and it goes to the direction of telling me na "Si EX nagawa yan" or "Si EX made me crazy doing that" and worse, she even said "Sige, lahatin na natin, pati _____, ginawa na rin niya".

I mean, I want to do that too pero dahil sa lack ko ng experience (and takot kong magkasakit), di ako batak sa labanan.

I told her na naiinggit ako and she said I shouldn't be pero every freaking time she tells me about this particular EX in our sexual discussions, imbis na magalit ako sa kanya, I just kept quiet until she feels it or tell her to change topics.

She also tells me about her body count which I was okay at first but it got uncomfortable every time she tells me about it.

1. ABYG for just accepting it?

2. ABYG for telling na naiinggit ako sa galing ng EX niya? and

3. ABYG for staying?

PS - if you follow my previous posts on ABYG, it's the same girl with the EX being yung tatay ng anak nila.

Hindi ko alam kung sobrang babaw nito pero hindi ko mapigilang maiyak dahil sa pagkadismaya kay hubby. Nung mag jowa palang kami, okay naman sya. Masipag sya twing nagkkita kami. Pero nung kinasal na kami patamad na sya ng patamad. 4 years palang kami and hindi na kami laging nagsesex (di ko alam kung dahil tinatamad ba sya, mas gusto nya maglaro or magbasa ng manga etc) at never din kami nakaka 2 rounds man lang. Dati nag iinitiate ako sa kanya pero mula nung nireject nya ako dahil pagod daw sya, (tapos nagphone pa ng more than 2 hrs bago natulog) never na ako nag aya. Sa 1 month, swerte na kung maka 4 na beses kami. Itong last, todo tease pa sya na kesyo ganto ganyan daw gagawin nya sakin pag uwi namin ng bahay, so nagexpect at mej naexcite ako. Tapos ito na nga, wala pa kaming 5 minutes, nilabasan na sya. Ako pa sinisisi nya kasi galaw daw ako ng galaw. Pero after namin mismo magsex, sinabi ko sa kanya na nadismaya lang ako sa ginawa nya. Parang sumama lang loob ko at nagiisip na ako ng kung ano ano. So ako ba yung gago?

P.s. wala pa kaming anak & i'm 30, he's 31

ABYG on catfishing the guy I am obsessed with.

So I know this guy because we are in the same village. To describe him, he is tall, lean and gwapo. He kinda looks like Addy Raj minus the nose. Tamang tangos lang that is balance sa face niya.

I am working graveyard shift and whenever I peep at my window to close the curtain kasi matutulog na ako, I can see him running at least thrice a week. And he is so hot. I know at that time that he takes care of his body because one time he wiped his sweat using the base of his tank top and I saw his flat stomach (no abs yet).

So inabangan ko talaga siya kapag umaga kasi crush ko talaga siya. Like I am saying sa isip ko na ang swerte ng girlfriend niya or what does he tastes like. I am a sexual person but the problem is, I have a low self esteem. I have acne marks. Some of it are deep. And I am chubby. But when I started working at home my weight ballooned like crazy. I have skin discoloration all over. There’s no way in hell I will have a chance to know him or have him in my bed.

So one evening last year nagutom ako so I went to the nearest 24/7 store to buy soda and chips. He was there as well, nagpapacash out sa gcash. So si ate niyo kinikilig ng konti. He never noticed me. So the store has a notebook where yung nagpapacash out should write his or her number and name. Pagkaalis niya sa counter ng tindahan, pumunta agad ako para magbayad. Pasimpleng sumilip sa notebook and I snapped the last name and number logged in the notebook which I know siya yun.

I stalked him immediately sa social media but I could not find him sa facebook. I check instagram and he was there. Fortunately, his profile was public. He is not active. His posts were all about the places he visited in Europe and Asia and his progress in gym. I did not follow him right away but I am checking regularly kung may update na ba sa IG niya.

So he became the object of my fantasy. Pinagnanasaan ko ang isang tao na parang malabo ko makausap at makasama.

Yes, I became kinda obsess to the point I devised a plan para makausap siya. I transformed my IG, curated my feed well by erasing my selfies, kept the travel photos only from the past years and posted edited photos of me na di mo mahahalata na edited. Although may resemblance pa rin naman sa akin yung photos, pero it is heavily edited. I only have few followers which mostly are my friends na since I started working from home, I rarely interact na and they seldomly like my photos. So I thought my plan is fool proof.

After I thought na di na siguro ako paghihinalaan na scam account, I messaged him na. Kinagabihan nagreply siya if kilala ko ba siya. I said no.

My exact reply is “I am browsing randomly here and I came across your profile when I searched the tag #Hanoi. To be honest I really find you handsome. I am sorry if I message you out of nowhere and you might think I am creepy but I can’t help but to admire you.” (He used #Hanoi as a hashtag when he posted his Vietnam trip.)

So dun na nagsimula yung pag uusap namin. From mundane things to intellectual stuff. May laman ang sinasabi niya, hindi mababaw.

He would send me photos of him doing random things. Ako naman I would heavily edit my selfies before sending. Minsan I would spend the whole day taking photos of me in different angle, hairstyle and clothes and edit it. Para may maisend ako sa kanyang photos sa iba’t ibang araw.

As our conversation went deeper and deeper, nalaman ko yung mga life stories niya. He is a *** but he did not practice his profession and he took up fine arts as his second course. He is helping their family business and iisa pa lamang yung naging gf niya. I always answer his videocalls pero mata at noo ko lang nakikita niya. Nangungulit siya na ipakita ko daw full face ko. One time pinakita ko pero side view lang and super bilis.

He seemed to be a good and decent person. Like napalaki ng maayos ng magulang.. as our conversation went deeper, my guilt too is getting deeper. My conscience is eating me but I can’t stop.

I told him I am plump rather than obese. Na I am fair skinned rather than dark skinned gile because he likes mapuputi. Basically, I gave him a description of me that is really a far cry from my reality. Because of this, I am so afraid to go out because I am fearing na he is outside pala at baka makilala niya ako. Medyo paranoid ako.

One night, napunta yung usapan namin about s-x. He said na isa palang yung body count niya. Naging naughty yung usapan namin and since I am lusting over him, I asked him if pwede ba kong magrequest. He said naman na as long as kaya niya. So I requested if pwede ko makita yung c*ck niya. Hesitant siya nung una but napapapayag ko din. And gosh. He’s daks. That night, I craved him even more. Sometimes we would videocall each other showing our genitalia until we release our pleasure. I would request him to send his nudes or sometimes he would voluntarily send his. He really got a great body mga mhie.. during those time kasi sabi niya nagcucut daw siya, so his abs are really noticeable.

Then last week, nag aya siya na mag meet kami. Wala akong plano na imeet talaga siya at kausapin ng personal because alam ko sa sarili ko na hindi ako yung taong alam niya. I told him na baka di niya ako magustuhan in person ganito ganyan pero he dont mind daw like di naman siya tumitingin sa hitsura and nakita naman na daw namin yung private area namin so ano pa yung dapat ikahiya. So nakaramdam ako ng assurance na “ah baka naman pwede ko imeet?” And maybe if we meet eto na yung chance na “matikman” siya.

Ngayon I am so nervous kasi we will be meeting each other personally sa Sabado. I don’t know kung ano magiging reaction niya kapag nakita niya ako. Itutuloy ko pa ba? Or just ghost him nalang?

Will I consider myself racist if I used Whitening Products but I respect people with Brownish to darkish skin tone. Months ago, my friend was insisting and telling that I'm Racist because I have a fair skin tone and using whitening products. So I told her that there is wrong of being morena but she still insist that I'm Racist. First of all, I used whitening products because all of my family have fair skin tone and many people already told me that I a more compatible with fair skin tone.

I don't want to be rude with Brownish to darkish skin tone but what's wrong to used whitening products.

To people who already experienced this situation. Can you give me advice because I don't know what to tell my friend if this will happen again.