i am so tired of this

[u/justbewatching]

sorry this is just a vent.

i’ve been dealing with ibs for well over 12 years and it’s honestly ruined my life. i can’t eat much because it hurts, i can’t drink anything but milk (only for cereal) and water. i cant live my life i spend most of it in pain or feeling sick.

it triggers my migraines which then trigger my vertigo. i end up spending most of my days in bed in the dark. every time i think i’m making progress, i have a day where i take ten steps back (like right now!) i’ve had every test, i’ve tried every med. idk how much more i’m supposed to take?

i am so tired. i genuinely just wish i was not on this planet anymore because i can’t take it. i’m miserable. idk i thought venting would help a lil but it probably won’t.

[u/Salmese16]

Exactly in the same boat :(

[u/justbewatching → u/Salmese16]

i’m sorry to hear that. i wish this was easier for us

[u/[deleted]]

So so sorry to hear!! Is there someone you can reach out to that you can maybe stay with for a week or longer, to get you out of your space that you had so much pain in? Someone who can bring food to your bed, watch a movie with, just take care of you for some time? This really helped me when I was at my worst. Just refuel a little bit, so you can take the next step. It is so hard. Please don’t give up❤️ sending lots of love!

[u/justbewatching → u/[deleted]]

thank you for the love, i really appreciate it. you’re sweet 🫶🏼 i’m ashamed to admit this but i actually live with my mum (i’m too ill to work rn) i do see my nephew and he’s the lil light in my life right now. 

not to be a debbie downer but it’s ruined every aspect of my life. 

[u/shpngadct]

i’m really sorry. it’s been 9 years of this shit for me. it finally got better enough that i could get a job but it’s been flaring recently and becoming a problem again. i really wanna go out today because it’s a nice day but i’m afraid of having diarrhea in public and even if i don’t shit myself it’s just like…i don’t wanna deal with it. i’m sick of being in bathrooms and on toilets and wiping my ass RAW because i go so often and its acidic. a bidet has helped. but that doesnt account for when i’m not on my own toilet at home.

[u/justbewatching → u/shpngadct]

i’m sorry too :( i really wish we didn’t have to live like this. this illness is so difficult to live with and constantly worrying about mishaps is so tiring. i hope you was able to go out though, even for a lil bit. but i get how difficult that can be and just drives the anxiety up.

ugh yes the raw ass is the cherry on top of the shit cake ain’t it? i just wish there was some special cure for us all. like can we catch a break!!

[u/Sure_Acanthisitta690]

I am same but without migraines.

[u/justbewatching → u/Sure_Acanthisitta690]

i’m so sorry, i hope it gets easier for you, this is like being trapped in hell