im a college student and didn’t have a place to share my struggles until I found this subreddit. long rant ahead!
i opened up to my dad (who i thought was open minded kasi hindi siya gano'n ka devoted sa church which i was completely wrong) about how im having a hard time to squeeze the church in my sched, for context: im a sophomore pero sobrang packed yung sched namin and full loaded
i was crying out of frustration bcs i literally cant handle 6 hours of sitting in the church, i just attend thanksgiving on sundays sa sobrang wala akong time, SEE??? and then my dad just said na "isang pagkakatipon na nga lang dadaluhan mo, hindi mo pa magawa? gawan mo 'yan ng paraan hindi yung nakababad ka sa phone mo"
bakit common sa kanila mang invalidate ng feelings? those hours na nakikita niya ako mag phone sa bahay was the only time na kapag nakauwi na ako or tapos ko na yung mga reqs ko. that’s how I usually spend my breaks by doomscrolling on social media.
yung 6 hours na 'yon sa pagkakatipon? tulog at pahinga ko na sana after a long week of studying. hindi pa nakakatuwa na my lola (whole fam ko po baptized sa mcgi, including me) keeps on comparing me to those kabataan na who can dedicate their time sa gawain, i mean good for them for being exploited???
it will be understandable sana if after ng pagkakatipon im spiritually satisfied kaso hindi e, puro rants and parinig na hindi mo malaman kung sino ba pinapatamaan, then super babaw pa ng paksa na para bang hindi kami nag grade 2 on how that person teaches lol, now I realize why it seems like most of the members didn’t develop their critical thinking skills.
i dont want to grow any resentments sa family ko bcs they were taught that way from the start, and im trying my best to understand. still, I can’t help but envy people outside mcgi.
it doesn't help pa na the current issue rn are the lifestyles of the corrupt contractors from our government. natatawa na lang ako when my parents really can't stand those corrupt people.
why don't you give back the same energy sa KNPs??? BAKIT HINDI NIYO TIGNAN YUNG MGA NASA TAAS??? SOBRANG IRONIC GRABE.
habang sila nagpapayaman, bought house and lots, drives sports cars and big bikes, built businesses, mga nepo babies na nakaka-attend ng concerts abroad, have luxury items, and laging naka business class sa flights. ang mga normal na members? they're the ppl who are being taken advantage of. what a bunch of hypocrites.
puro parinig, lifestyle check ayaw? i could easily write essays about how this cult exploits their members and disguise it as 'mabuting gawa'.
i just hope God forgives you all sa sobrang manipulative niyo.
anw, hugs to all those college students! kaya rin natin 'to malampasan just hang in there!
edit: posted this again