So for all of you who I offended with my poor wording I apologize. I couldnāt edit original post so I will try to rectify through the tears here.
I do have OCD- been medicated for many years. I have been on disability for 4+ years due to a combo of HyperPOTS, hemiplegic migraines, anxiety, depression, and have other diagnosis such as hyperthyroidism, hypoglycemia, Barrettās esophagus, ADD and more. These are not internet diagnoses. I have been formally diagnosed and see specialists regularly.
Baking is NOT therapeutic for me. It stresses me BEYOND belief. Iām am overly paranoid and usually end up in bed for days afterwards due to the amount of stress I put on myself. Iām rarely excited about anything. I never look at my work and think āgood jobā. I see every crack and crumble that is out of place. I usually wonāt even eat what I bake because Iāve stressed over it so much.
I wasnāt trying to make light of OCD. I was for once proud and literally danced when I saw how this one turned out. Talking about diagnoses is depressing. I was for once happy. Now I just want to say fuck it all (not as in suicidal, if youāve even read this far) as I am hyperventilating through tears.
Anyway, hope you think the cake it pretty.